I can't easily separate the eating disorder and the OCD, but then it's all part of the same problem and the OCD tendencies and anxiety was there from I was little little. The food shit came naturally, cause really it was already there. Now it's all a mess. Including my apartment! But I am clean! And empty.
Same here! I have suffered with OCD-spectrum behaviors since my first conscious memories, as a result of my chaotic mind. Without the OCD I probably would have never developed anorexia, all of my behaviors were compulsive, all of my thoughts were obsessive.
OCD effects you physically and mentally, weightloss/gain, high blood pressure, sleep deprivation, ex... It's no laughing matter. Sure it's quirky and a little funny when I have to lock the car door multiple times and often leave buildings to check, but people wouldn't think it was so funny if they saw the amount of sleep I am deprived of because of checking.
Another thing that irks me about is that people take it so lightly. They don't understand how dark and twisted the intrusive thoughts can be. I while ago I kept getting the thought that I was going to die on a specific date (August 20th, 2012), every minute of every day leading up to it was spent in fear. Another scary intrusive thought was that if I didn't preform certain tasks around the house that I would end up accidentally killing myself or my family. And yes all these twisted lies that our brains come up with do make us feel empty and Mikki I am so sorry you have to deal with the emptiness as well.
As a child I would lay awake at night because I was afraid the fire alarms would malfunction and the entire household would burn to death in the night.
And the worst part is, is that we know it is irrational!!! I would really appreciate if people would stop acting like we don't.
Edited by Pensive, 19 February 2015 - 12:23 PM.