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#21 Achromatic

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Posted 18 April 2015 - 05:02 AM

Yesterday I didn't self harm because I was on a plane but I still could have done something and I didn't because self harm doesn't really solve anything and I really didn't want to cause any more of a scene than I already had (I spilt my drink all over myself and my seat so my seat was soaking wet and then I started crying because I could hardly run from the situation at 40000 feet!), I did other things instead: I spoke to the flight attendants, took a Valium (which did fuck all), had an alcoholic drink (which then caused me to think I was going to die from the interaction between booze and diazepam. Not my wisest move...), focused on my breathing and tried to distract myself with a tv programme.
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#22 Imaginary

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Posted 05 January 2016 - 11:05 PM

Because it's been almost 4 years since I last self-harmed and it is not worth it.  It is never worth it.  It will not make anything better.  


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#23 Woozles

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Posted 02 February 2016 - 08:50 PM

Because I can't be arsed to go all the way to A&E and I'm too ashamed to show my face at the MIU for the 3rd time in two weeks.
Plus, I'm seeing my care-coordinator/T tomorrow morning and I need her to see that I am at least trying.
That, and it's so fucking exhausting - the actual cutting, cleaning and dressing the wound, cleaning up the mess, getting to A&E/MIU, waiting anxiously for hours to be seen (stressing bc you never know if you'll be treated decently/with respect or not), having to explain "what triggered this" and not knowing where to even begin.. :( Then ofc, if you're a borderline-hypochondriac like me (I'm terrified of getting infections these days) the aftercare - keeping them clean, changing dressings, removing stitches, etc). I'm just too damn tired now.

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#24 silverlining

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Posted 22 February 2016 - 07:16 AM

Because I have school photos tomorrow.



#25 Lottie

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Posted 22 May 2016 - 10:33 PM

Because if I start again it'll just be another thing that I have to work to stop... And I don't want to add to the existing collection of scars.



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#26 RingoDarling

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Posted 30 June 2016 - 04:02 PM

Accountability statement: this is no longer an option.

I have to work to keep my iron up anyway.
No time for any of this shit.

Just weird to have these urges now.
They are there. Here they are.
And no.
Just no.
Even though I WANT to. Even though I can get away with it. Easily.
No. Just no.

:: pets her monster ::

We are working on things.

Edit: and I really really want to. It is so easy and simple and it does actually help me sleep.
And no.
Nope.
Not a healthy coping skill.
So, no.
Societally abnormal.
So, no.

Etaa: maybe I should have said nothing. Let thoughts pass and all.

Been awhile.

Musical interlude. I am safe and no harm, self or otherwise shall come to me.

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#27 Hobnailed_elf

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Posted 31 August 2016 - 05:21 AM

Because I'm having a couple of days respite and that would get me thrown out.

But I really really want to.



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Posted 13 September 2016 - 07:51 AM

Because I don't heal fast, get infections and my family already hates me, don't need one more thing to add to the list.

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Posted 24 September 2017 - 01:30 AM

Because I can't risk missing my Grandma's 89th(!!) birthday meal tomorrow, because i fucking itch everywhere & need to heeeeeal
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#30 Woozles

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Posted 08 October 2017 - 06:53 PM

Because I've got plans with my dad tomorrow & i'd feel guilty if i'm in hosp & cant go. Bc I'm running out of room/places i can still feel on my thighs and i know i'm not done yet :(

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#31 Nook

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Posted 10 August 2018 - 11:27 PM

Because I don't want to throw away over 3.5 years free from cutting
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Posted 10 August 2018 - 11:27 PM

And being in hospital is keeping me safe for now

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Posted 10 August 2018 - 11:39 PM

Bc the conditions where I work are dirty which would easily result in an infection and there's no a/c, so people would see what I did or the bandages. Plus I'm too tired, if that makes sense.



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Posted 11 August 2018 - 03:06 AM

^ (((hugs)))


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