I've been hospitalised twice in the last 6 weeks as a result of drug OD's.
The thing is, I work at the hospital. Both times I was hospitalised different sets of staff were on, and I was off my face on pills. Now a large majority of the people that I work directly with know my clinical history and have seen me unwell.
I'm feeling pretty shit about this situation. I'm trying not to feel embarrassed- but I do feel embarrassed about it. Hospitals hate patients like me who waste their time with pathetic OD's*. And obviously, in the situation where I am the patient and largely non responsive, I don't really get any opportunity to defend myself and explain what happened or why it happened. I know awareness for mental illness has increased in recent times, but I still feel like all the judgements will be hanging in the air...
Now I'm freaking out about going back to work tomorrow Any advice? Does anyone else here work in a hospital? What do the staff say or talk about behind our backs?
*(Both of the OD's were relatively minor, in neither case did I call the ambulance or want to go to hospital, but I was in public spaces and security guards got involved and they called emergency services). (And yes, obviously I know taking drugs is bad and I should avoid this situation, and I am working on doing that... but I had given up the b/p-ing for a while and was just not coping with emotions etc.).
Edited by Wednesday, 20 July 2015 - 06:10 AM.