I did that once years ago.. it was my first and only time using speed and i basically damaged property because i wasn't aware of myself at all and didn't recognize my own strengths..
I definitely used that to reflect on myself.. I was embarrassed, appalled and scared that i could so removed from myself that it would cause me to do things without me even realizing it until i came down hours afterwards..
Baths are something i definitely use to chill out but since you don't have access to that music really works and also having access to CADS is definitely good.. that is a resource and something you should take advantage of.. being able to talk in an non judgmental atmosphere is something i know i would've benefited from as a whole at that time in my life.. talking openly, freely and honestly in a safe situation can definitely be the beginning of a healing experience and i would definitely take advantage of your time there while you have it..
Like limon-miele said.. be gentle with yourself.. we're only human.. we take time to heal.. we take time to grow and we take time to develop.. recognizing your actions and life could be improved upon is different than bashing yourself over the head for it.. One is helpful and allows for periods of growth and the other is damaging and will only cause unhappiness and suffocation..
Hope you are safe right now!!..
Don't focus on the past.. focus on the girl on the inside who needs love and healing and understanding and you will be starting in the right direction..